Today

Today is a new day!

At least that is what I tell myself...

....everyday...

However! Today always seems to be better than yesterday-and today is no exception! Today is a good day. Today is a day of many new possibilities that can solve all our problems and make our life new. Now, whether or not it comes true is completely up to...well...me?

As a mother I find myself being overwhelmed by life. The cooking, the cleaning, the laundering, the bill paying, the disciplining, the encouraging, the motivating, the rampaging, the deep breath taking-it's all very large and very loud and incredibly demanding! So much is expected of us! We are the center of the home. Without us there is no order to the chaos, no cleanliness to the mess, no satisfaction to the needs-and there are so many needs!!!

*takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly*

Today is a new day.

Kids are at school.

Husband is in the garage.

Best friend is on the phone.

Life is good....

...for now.

April 2016 General Conference - Sunday Sessions

https://www.lds.org/media-library/video/general-conference/sunday-afternoon-session-october-2014?lang=eng

April 2016 General Conference - Saturday Sessions

Re-Educated

I am sitting in the hallway outside my youngest son's kindergarten classroom.

Ah, the joys of being a mother. I don't mind it. It's what I signed up for. In all my life, I've never felt more empowered than I do being a mother. The things we mothers do! We are practically every occupation in the world all rolled up into one! We are construction workers, (building blocks, forts, rocket ships to the moon!); artists, (let's face it- kids are crafty! Between the play dough and the paint, they want to experience it all in full color!); musicians, (Singing lullabies and nursery rhymes, playing homemade instruments, sharing our own musical talents through story, song and play!); chefs, (coming up with new recipes to please even the pickiest of eaters-practically a full time job itself!); chauffeur, (between dance class, school, library trips, Cubs, swimming lessons, church activities, play dates, and the inevitable trips to doctors appointments, dentist appointments, and the 'hopefully rare' hospital trips, *deep breath* you get the idea. ); After all of that...and more! - how can anyone possibly say, "a stay-at-home mom doesn't do anything all day"?!?

Just sayin'...

Draft-ed

(I wrote this a couple of weeks ago but it never published for some reason.)

Good after hello! How goes it? I am soooo tired. I fell a week ago and sprained my rotator cuff...(is that what it is called?)...and I have been unable to do anything! So I am going stir crazy..a little. I have had so many urges to come and write but then I fall asleep. >.< I dream of writing them though! Does that count? Today has actually been a good day, but my shoulder is sore and tired now.

The delicious smells of dinner cooking  are wafting through the house and it smells good! Chicken strips and chicken wings. Yummy! Also, curly fries. Yes, I do the unhealthy once in a while. BUT we have some fresh fruit to go along with it. Fruit is like candy in my house. My kids love fruit!!! They eat it with every meal. I also like to make smoothies with frozen fruit. Because the fruit is frozen, there is no need for ice that tastes like the freezer. ^.^

My hubby and boys are playing the wii, my daughter is playing the ipod touch, and I am on the computer. Lately I have been feeling a little too overwhelmed by technology. Don't get me wrong, it definitely is worth the ease it brings, but it also brings entirely new problems. My eldest son, (6 yrs old), Joseph, a.k.a Joey, a.k.a JoJo, is following in his daddy's footsteps-game addiction. My hubby has PTSD, which creates an interested array of challenges in our life. One of which is the problem with game addiction. My husband is on his computer every waking minute, playing tactical games such as Dofus, Wakfu, Warcraft, Minecraft, and many other MMORPGs. Not that I mind him playing the games, I don't! In fact, I enjoy playing the games with him! At least I used to. The problem is, I can never get his attention and when I need him to do something, I have to wait for hours! Not my favorite pastime! When he is on the computer, he is completely oblivious to those around him and what they are doing. Which tends to get on my nerves-A LOT! So how do I deal? Mostly I just continue on, doing everything that needs to be done in a home with 3 little ones. It's not that I ignore him, I just try to incorporate his annoying addiction into our reality. Most of the time it works. But there are those moments when-Grr! Argh! ...and then some. After all, I am only human.

Getting back to ME-ality!

Alright, so here's the thing. I miss me! I miss writing my heart out and rambling on about whatever it was that stirred me up that day! I miss using larger vocabulary than, "Shirt on. No, shirt on then snack." Seriously?

Where have I gone and how do I get myself back?!?

Well, I used to journal 10 times a day. (No joke!) Whether is was my physical journal or my online journal, I always had something to say. I journalled EVERYTHING.  Now it's time to get back to ME-ality! It's time to get back into the art of exposing myself from the inside out.

Now, obviously I am a teenager no more, and the angst has since mellowed. HOWEVER! I still have plenty of drama in my life! (Not that I am thrilled about that...) But what do you expect being married to a man with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), two children with learning delays, one of which has attention deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), a sweet princess of a girl who's life is entirely dance, (Seriously. She's 4!), and your own severe health issues that proves more of a challenge at times than everything put together?

*Deep. Breath.*

 Drama.

The interesting twist to this blog is that not only will I bare my heart and soul naked to the world, but that I will try to do it with reflection and poise. (Yeah, good luck with that one.) So wish me luck and send me on my way into the chaotic cacophony that is me.

TTFN!